It’s early October and a lot of seniors will be in the hurly-burly of filling out numerous applications of their top choice colleges. It’s that dreadful time of the year filled with anxiousness, desperation and parental expectations. Going through the pages of a typical application, I came to the essay section. Predictably, it asked me to write about myself. Seemed like a cake walk. But hold on a second. Who was I?
The herculean task of writing about myself was always reflected upon the blank stare of my face. I had written countless articles, essays and poems, but all of them failed to answer the aforementioned question. It’s not that I didn’t care about myself; I adored my being. I just didn’t come to terms on how I would be able to articulate about myself as a person. I’m very certain there are many adolescents out there who feel the same way as I did; who have no idea what to do when they’re bestowed with the activity of talking or writing about themselves and who often come up with vague accounts that barely reflect their character and what they constitute of.
This can be owed to several reasons. We believe technological amelioration, as highlighted by Abhishek’s previous post, is linked with our character; which is similarly changing. We often think of our personality as erratic, vulnerable to external changes. This is a red herring, a misconception. It may be hard to stand still on a moving train, but we are still the same people on the train. It might be hard to maintain the same look, clothing style or even make up with the changing trends, but we are still the same people at the very core. We are not defined by what we look outside, but what we are inside.
We must engage in self-realisation, an arduous process of opening our inner doors. Asking deep questions such as “What is my purpose?” or “Where am I headed” is a start. Getting an idea of yourself by getting feedback from friends and family is a good way to find out how you are perceived, but it shouldn’t be the deciding factor in defining who you are. You’re the true master of yourself. And when you finally know yourself as much as James Watt knew the Steam Engine, nothing will stop you from conquering the world.
So who am I? I’m Urvashi Satwani, a passionate environmentalist with an interest in dance, literature and the sciences. I’m very confident, a fan of debate, and always remain true to my word no matter what the circumstance is.
(Co-written by Bassim Eledath)
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